Days when I slacked off.....

It was just a few weeks after our midterm exams, i have worked so hard during the first two grading periods of my junior year in college. I have spent hours and hours in studying, doing assignments and completing requirements. I even had spent most of the time with my subjects than in reading book and writing my novel.

All this time i have worked so hard all for a good grade, I never aimed to get a 1.00 (100% or A+), but if my professors would reward me with such grade, I'd be honored. Honestly speaking, I don't want to be treated as one of the smartest guys in our class, I want a good grade, that is worth bragging to, and grades that can make my parents proud.

The past days, I have only spent 5 to 6 hours of sleep. I could only sleep for 8 hours during weekends. This is because of all the demands of my professors, I never complained, all i kept in my mind is to do good, finish it, and go home with a smile. It was very tiring to meet all this demands, too much stress have overcome me. i even had times where i felt very sick due to stress. But I had to ignore my conditions, for school is very important to me. I would hate it if I had to miss out any lessons, quizzes and homeworks.

Prelims and midterms have passed, all my subjects in both period has been great. My grades got higher than I'd expected , but unfortunately, my computer subject got lower than before. before I had a 1.25 later in midterms, 1 got 1.75. This is due to the fact that my practical quizzes had low scores, and some got zero. But I'm glad that my other subjects were higher than before.

In our school, the cut off grade is 9.00, if a student reaches it, he/she has the option to drop the subject or still come to class but will have a grade of 5 (no matter how high the score would be in finals, as long as you get 9 in prelims plus midterms, it is considered failed.)

But thank God, i did not reach 9.00, almost all of my grades had a sum of 3.00 or or 3.5 (I still have a lot of grades to catch up before I reach 9, but even if i get a 5.00 this finals, i'd still pass.)

I was so relieved to see my grades, higher than I have expected, I am confident that I won't fail this finals. But there was a slight problem with it. Since my passing is secured, i have been slacking off this past week.

I can name my irresponsibility during this work.

First, I have a report in my History subject and a quiz about the previous lesson. I had 5 days of allowance to study my report and review, but i did nothing on the two. Instead I laid down my bed, and played with my PSP (portable playstation). The results? I had less than 10 answers in the quiz, i am not even sure if they were all right. In other words, I failed a 40-item quiz. and in the report? i could not answer the questions being asked by my professor. (Shame on me. :[ )

Second, I also have a report in one of my major subjects. (Room Division Management and Control System.) Before, it was due on Wednesday, that me and my group mates will have to discuss about the topic assigned to us. Again, i did not read, just played with my PSP. Luckily, it was postponed until Monday.

Of course, i feel ashamed of having a failing grade even in a quiz. But I promised myself, that this weekend, i would spend my time clearing my mind, keeping the fact that I am still studying and i a responsibility as student. I would want to have this weekend to be pleasant and quiet, so that my mind can be at ease.

Hopefully, next week, I could be myself again, and do what I have to best.

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Hiya readers! This is one of my writings that I wanted to share with all of you, i appreciate it if you'd comment on it....i hope you'll like it, i wrote it down when i was going home from school. it was an ordinary day, i think the sun is about to set... anyhow... ENJOY! :)

Life Astray

I walked along the street of Molave

While the sun is to set to bring the dark

The vehicles are running towards me

I walked against to find some nourishment

To bring my life up to its full extent

My skin is unwell and so is my soul

I looked forward and I saw nothing else

But those who dwell on this land who thought none

I seek for something to nourish myself

But all is trash that lies along the street

I walked with hope higher than clouds afloat

I see dwellers walk with eyes upon me

Ignore them I did, but then I walked more

I went left and went aside and endured

To free myself from the traffic afar

The night came and the Moon shone its beauty

The bright sky went dark and small lights glitters

The wind blew colder than the wind of day

I lay beside the street of Molave

With my head, skin and four legs on the earth

I closed my eyes and felt a deep slumber

I feel the vehicles and dwellers move

But my eyes were shut and my sight is dark

I lay beside the street of Molave

The wind blew cold breeze and filled all the space

I woke up and felt none and empty but

I do not see dwellers or vehicles

Only see a man, dressed in white, bright cloth

He came to me, and pats my head and said

Welcome to the kingdom my little friend.

-R.M. Cuenca